Life Updates with Lucy | #4 What's been going on...

30 October 2019

Wow, where do I begin? My life seems to be changing month by month at the moment and I've only just had the chance to catch my breath. I feel like I may as well start off this post all fresh prince-esque, "now this is a story all about how my life got flipped, turned upside down"...

First thing's first, I graduated wooo! I managed to bag myself a 2:1 and I'm still so proud of that. However, the month after graduation was the most up and down month of my life. Filled with the highest of high's but also some of the lowest of low's. I won't go into too much detail as I like to keep this blog a positive space for me but I'm not going to lie, it was tough, and I felt every emotion possible. One thing I will tell you is that my graduate job as a Marketing Assistant didn't work out.

I was constantly made to feel like I had to second guess myself, always scared I would put a foot out of line or, on the other hand, that I wasn't putting myself out there as much as I should. I didn't know, and still don't know, what was wanted of me, and it was a bit of a confidence blow at first. However, I am out of it now and I am so grateful that I didn't end up with what I thought I wanted. I'm happier now than I felt I should have been at that point in my life, and I think it really goes to show that just because society says you are smashing life, it doesn't mean you actually are. I'm now lucky enough to work with some absolutely amazing people, some that have become really good friends, and I'm encouraged to be me and to have confidence, and it's such a great feeling. I also have a little secret project up my sleeve, but more on that later...

On a positive note, I finally passed my driving test! Driving used to scare the life out of me (turns out learning to drive and bad anxiety don't mix) but now I'm in a better place I've learnt to love it, and I love having the freedom to drive about in my gorgeous little mini to go wherever I want, when I want, and have a little dance party to my music in the process. Driving was a fear I never thought I would get over, so I'm proud of how far I've come since I was 17.

I still don't have my life completely together. But then again, who ever really does? I've learnt that my 20s are going to be all about the 'work in progress' stage of life where I figure out who I want to be and what I want out of life. I was putting way too much pressure on myself to do what society wanted of me rather than what I actually wanted. It's also about learning who is important to me and who really benefits my life. I don't have the patience for people who aren't fully there for me anymore as I found I was always putting myself out for people who later stabbed me in the back. You have to have your own back, even if it means letting people go. 

So that's where I am at the moment. Slightly all over the place but also slowly piecing the puzzle together at the same time. For now, I'm focusing on being creative and finding true happiness, but mostly just enjoying the whirlwind that is your 20s.

I have lots of new posts coming up soon. I'm getting back to my roots with some good old make up reviews, I'm posting more in my 'grab a cuppa' girl talk series and I've even got an exciting fashion collab coming up very soon! So please stay tuned and follow this journey with me.

Till next time.

Lucy x

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  1. Thanks for sharing! Life has been UP and DOWN for me as well lately...but I feel like things are settling into a good place and am optimistic about the future. Now's the time of year when I start to panic a bit about anything that didn't go as planned because with the end of the year approaching you can somewhat feel like a failure. But it's also important to examine who we are as person at the end of the year and if we're in a better place? That's a win!

    xoxo - Kelly

    1. Don't feel like a failure Kelly, I'm sure you're doing a lot better than you think! We love to be our own worst enemy, but I'm trying to look at the positives and it's a lot better that way. Thank you for your comment, I totally agree that even small improvements are achievements! x